Lump inside my throat Puts pressure to my chest Keeps pushing and pushing And make feel the guilt Shortcuts taken again But I still can't fill you up I can't wait to get home Can't wait to be alone Got use to the bitter taste Got used to you etching me up I ignore the obvious I don't even care While I press my tongue While I grind my teeth I try not to lose it all Not to lose control You are a cure bringing cancer Dissolving me into your heaven Weird numbing power trip 100 million butterflies Shape shifting stupid little joy High speed emotion on adrenaline Excitingly relaxing dream eater Dimension 4 window Ethereal gateway Time bender Room changer Ecstatic shock When I only saw the night You made me see the stars You absorbed me into your Blissful sea of tar I somehow feel like shit For using you again In the end I really do not care enough