I tried it once before, but I didn't get too far I felt a lot of pain, but it didn't stop my heart And all I really wanted was someone to give a little fuck But I waited there forever and nobody even looked up I tried it once before and I think I mighta messed up I struggled with the veins and I guess I didn't bleed enough But maybe I'm alive because I didn't really wanna die But nothing very special ever happens in my life Take the blade away from me I am a freak, I am afraid that All the blood escaping me won't end the pain And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me I died to be the white ghost Of the man that I was meant to be I tried it like before and this time I made a deep cut I thought about my friends and the way I didn't give enough And I shoulda told my mother 'mom, I love you' like a good son But this life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one Take the blade away from me I am a freak, I am afraid that All the blood escaping me won't end the pain And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me I died to be the white ghost Of the man that I was meant to be, yeah I tried it once again and I think I might black out I shoulda left a letter but I had nothing to write about My blood is all around me, I get dizzy if I stand up The cutting part was easy but regretting it is so fucked Take the blade away from me I am a freak, I am afraid that All the blood escaping me won't end the pain And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me I died to be the white ghost Of the man that I was meant to be, yeah I tried it once again and I think I went too far I cut a little deeper and the pressure stopped my heart I couldn't tell my mother: mom, I love you, I'm a bad son This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one